Introduction

This is a merge of my 'Wanderer' blog that tells of two years of my three years on the streets, and a new blog that tells of my life after the Diocese of Winchester ripped through my life for for the last few years on top of the previous serious harm that left me homeless
This is a day to day blog of my life as I continue to survive, work on recovery and on the social problems that I have and try to come to terms with limitless traumas I have survived along the way.
This blog is in tandem with my blog about my experiences in the Church of England http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/

The former name of this blog and the name of it's sister blog are to do with my sense of humour, which I hope to keep to the end, which appears to be ever more rapidly approaching. At least I laughed, and I laughed at the people who were destroying me. Don't forget that.

Here are my books, which I wrote for you if you would like to know more: http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/JJNP

Monday, 27 May 2013

Hi peeps,
I have been reading, weeding and resting. I did a bit of weeding of the church gardens, which I am allowed to do.
And I sat and read some books.

I was walking down to the toilets when an old friend saw me and stopped to chat and she gave me £2 to get what I wanted, and so I got some antacid tablets and came here for a cuppa tea.
Finances and food are looking gloomy peeps, please pray that I will get through.
And it is going to rain tonight.
Today has been mainly a very fine and warm day and I am sunburned from weeding.

I have been trying to relax but my thoughts have been racing and memories and feelings getting to me.
But I hope to enjoy the rest of the day with my books and music and a nice walk later.
You know what? when I try to relax like this I feel guilty and get fear of bad things happening in the future or even when I return to my evidence work tomorrow :( I feel heavy and anxious.

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