Introduction

This is a merge of my 'Wanderer' blog that tells of two years of my three years on the streets, and a new blog that tells of my life after the Diocese of Winchester ripped through my life for nine months last year and left me deeply damaged and ill.
This is a day to day blog of my life as I continue to survive, work on recovery and on the social problems that I have and try to come to terms with limitless traumas I have survived along the way.
This blog is in tandem with my blog about my experiences in the Church of England http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/

Saturday, 20 December 2014

Saturday afternoon

Good afternoon,

Well eventually I went out, went shopping, for essentials such as coal tar shampoo etc, and some goodies.
But I got tired and decided to come home, the scenic route.

Town was busy but not packed, and my agrophobia, for the first time ever, has dwindled to almost nothing, although I don't like people bumping me.

It is funny that the media have come up with another click-word, calling this Saturday 'Panic Saturday' as it is nothing of the sort, and they should go back to when I was a child and places closed down for two weeks over Christmas and people had to panic buy then, and there was no online shopping then, and online shopping is why town is relatively quiet.

Anyway, I came home, on the way I saw the sun set over the sea, then the sky glowing red, and I enjoyed the Christmas music on the radio.

I got home in time for 'Nativity' Which is just starting on BBC2.

I put some chicken fillets on, but realised I had got turkey by accident, which is fine, turkey is ok.

Nativity is good, but they made a mistake by making a sequel. Nativity 2 just screams of safeguarding bloopers and police.


Saturday morning

Good morning,

Well I slept a long sound night, too long.
I woke feeling tired and low. I don't want a day out today, and my adoptives are busy anyway, not that that would stop the day out, but today, when I finally wander out of the house, I think I will peruse the towns for Christmas goodies and odds and ends.

The Christmas Radio Times started today but there is nothing worth watching until later,

I finally ate and dressed and eventually I will wander out.

It is a grey and windy day.

Oh, guess what! I ordered myself a Christmas present today!
The Writers and Artists Yearbook 2015.
Lets go mad! :)

The enthusiasm for my short stories that have been shared locally means I will proceed with enthusiasm to start publishing work next year.
Just stories as yet, nothing to scare the Diocese of Winchester into their periodic insanity, although, should they launch more insanity, I will publish my full book about them :)
I think I will call it the 'Rage Book' in honour of their oilycreep friends the Church Times.
Or I could call it 'Church Times'.


Friday, 19 December 2014

Friday evening

Good evening,

Well I did chicken for lunch,
Then I found an old favourite film 'The cuckoo'.

Eventually I went out riding on the buses, enjoying the christmas lights and the christmas programme on Radio 2 in my earphones.

I got back late, and I am tired, so I will go to bed now.

The stalkerstat has been going wild.
Stalky, c'mon, get a life of your own,
prying in my life can't be a permenant obsession, surely?

Friday lunchtime

Good lunchtime,

Well I went to the bank,
And while I was there I checked when the bike shop would be open next week.
To ensure that the blue bike gets a christmas checkup and brake blocks.

I also got some fluffy slippers and a pair of very much needed trainers.


Friday morning

Good morning,

Well I slept a long sound night, busy with dreams before I woke.

I got up and have only been slowly coming to life, especially as I started out in pain, I really need to do something about support for my head and neck as I sleep.

Anyway, I am showered, dressed, fed, and the flat does look nice :)

I have also installed a new printer as the old one got dropped and broken in the move.

I must nip to the next town, to the bank, and then it is a free day, unless I go to the party at club tonight :) diet coke and dance music!

Tomorrow I may have a day out and see the adoptives and do a bit of shopping, I desparately need shoes and things.

It is a  sunny day with very strong winds.


Thursday, 18 December 2014

Thursday evening

Good evening,

Well I went out in the stormy windy weather, to pick up my prescription and then go and do the Big Shop at the supermarket.
I have not done a Big Shop while I have been here, I have been living on dregs, struggling and kind of just surviving here.

Anyway, I did the big shop, and the wind up at the supermarket tried to grab some of my groceries, including my flowers, again, it was like back at the time when the wind took my football and flowers up there before, only I got the flowers back both times and lost the football.

Anyway, eventually I got home, tired and hot, and painstakingly unpacked everything and cleared out any stale or dry food from the cupboard and fridge.

Then I did the bed linen, did the bed out in it's new linens. The bed has been a messy problem due to being halfway between a single and a double, and thus having no sheet and the scruffy old double duvet cover on it. Now it is done out in a soft Jersey sheet, a white version of my old blue Jersey bedding - which got left in Jersey. I like soft Jersey bedding. But the new duvet cover and pillowslips are smart blue and white checks. Wow it looks so much better, and all of a sudden the whole flat looks better.

The bathroom has a new loo brush set, and the sitting room is decorated and has the tree in it, as well as the changing colour candle with new batteries in it.
There is also a real candle lit.
Then the bed is smartly dressed and the toys all neatly grouped on the bed.

The television surface has a new bunch of flowers on it, the first flowers I have had here.
And the coffee table and box are covered in Christmas wrapping paper and are already sideboard to oranges and dates and chocolates.

The flat is generally looking a lot smarter and more 'homeley' as the landlord described it earlier when he popped in.

And there is the small tree by the door, and there is the tree I put in the communal area.
And guess what, the cards are staying on the wall now, they have ceased to hurtle like lemmings.

I have had very little time to admire the stormy seas and galeforce winds today, but I just walked over to the cliff, and it is windy but mild, and raining lightly, while the sea remains rough and the wind galeforce.

Tomorrow is a bit more relaxed, as far as I know! :)

I am tired after last night, so I may well sleep well in a very comfy looking bed.


Thursday afternoon

Good afternoon,

Phew! I am exhausted! :)

This morning I was collected to visit the horse therapy centre, I start there on the 5th of January as my timetable changes and I go up a level.
So cool, I can't think of anything nicer than working with the horsys, it was amazing to watch and hear about the horsys, so cool! :) awesome, peeps! And it may well help me a lot.
Horses have soft noses, I like stroking their soft noses.

Then I was dropped off to pick up my tree and to shop for decorations.

I picked up my tree and also got a little one for the communal area.

My tree is 6 foot, imitation spruce or was it pine, looks sprucey.

I got some decorations, and I came home, and put the tree together and decided that some more poundland lights would go down well, so I went into the next town and got lights and other much needed odds and ends.

Then I came home, very tired now, and decorated the tree, and the landlord knocked on the door as I was working, and I showed him the tree and the new television.

Then I completed the tree, and it does look a bit special, it is 6 foot, and I put it up in the sitting room, by the window, so all can enjoy it, and I did the lights, then the angel, then tinsel, then bead garlands, then ornaments, and then the kind of stuff you scatter over the tree to finish it off, and then I switched the lights on and put the presents under the tree, you must see it, peeps, there must be a way of getting a picture online at some point, it is so special.

And the other lovely thing is, the Christmas CDs that I am listening to on repeat are great, I got them in a charity shop a few weeks ago and they provide lovely background music.

It is a very windy and rainy day here, strong winds and dark clouds sitting on the hills, and rain blowing in.
Now I am planning another shopping trip, to the supermarket to start getting the Christmas food in.
I have moved the coffee table to next to the box on wheels in order to make space for the tree, so I think the coffee table and box can be covered in Christmas paper and used as a sideboard for the goodies :)

Now to set the Santa Trap.




Thursday morning

Good morning,

Please excuse the lack of blog.

I have been preoccupied with attending to my Mum on her visit and then yesterday a mixture of busy, no internet and other troubles.

On Tuesday morning the alarm went at 6am and I lay there for what seemed like ages, feeling very much like I didn't want to get up.
But I got up, washed, dressed, made sure the flat was even neater than it's usual new pin status, and set off on the two bus journeys to collect mother.

The night before, at church social, one of my friends had been commenting on how it was to be a glorious day on Tuesday, after all the jinxed visits and planned trips with the adoptive parents, so the weather wouldn't affect the visit.
Well, Haha, as I set out, thig fog was hanging in the air, and as I listened to the travel news in my earphones on the bus, all the transport was delayed!

Well I got down to the travel terminal in the foggy cold early morning and hoped for the best.
Eventually I watched the fog lifting, and my mother arrived, safe and sound, and about 15 minutes late, but she got here.

She got here earlier than usual and we enjoyed a scenic bus ride.
We got home and she inspected the new flat and pronounced that she approved of it, mother's seal of approval.
We had a cuppa and exchanged Christmas gifts, although we are likely to meet up again before Christmas and in the holidays.
But it is nice to have the gifts to go under the big tree, which I collect later today, and the flat is overflowing with decorations waiting to go on it.
The piles of gifts and decorations look lovely but lonely, waiting for their tree, and I have moved the little poundland tree to table by the door, so the tree can go in the sitting room, by the window.

Anyway, Mum and I walked down the cliffs to a cafe she is fond of and likes to visit when she is over here. I am fond of them too, nice people, good food, good prices.

The fog had lifted to a glorious winter's day.

We enjoyed lunch there and then went shopping, as we do.
Back to the flat and then I had to return Mother to her transport home, she had hoped I was going back with her but I didn't have enough spare money for the fare.
I will nip over in the next few days.

Yesterday was a day when everything went wrong, internet and phone down, multiple other stresses and generally a difficult time, and then in the afternoon my friends came round with my Christmas present, a band new freeview flatscreen tv, and a year's licence fee paid for. Aren't my friends cool? :)

So yesterday evening I rearranged the flat to get the tv onto a decent surface and get the place for the big Christmas tree sorted out.

Then I had a very rough night, and have only had a few hour's sleep. Not because I was watching television, just too much on my mind.
I spent a lot of the night writing as I couldn't sleep. I did not have the television on.

I am so glad I did sleep for about three hours, because although I have had to cancel my swim and gym as I am too tired, I am going ahead with meeting the horses today, and getting familiarized with the place where I will have horse-therapy and find comfort and development in working with the horses. Horses are better than humans at being therapists, they listen to all your problems and then snort and shake their heads and laugh horsely and you realise your problems are nothing.
Horses also have soft noses, and I am obsessed with soft things.

At 6am I went to the supermarket as my money was in, and got some much needed essentials, and the Christmas radio times, and since then I have been busy circling programmes I want to watch, as well as eating the chocolates that I am supposed to thread on the tree.

I am being collected to go to the horses in less than an hour, and then after that the real Christmas shopping starts, with the collection of the tree and many decorations and goodies.


Monday, 15 December 2014

Monday evening

Good evening,

Rushing around, the usual Monday chaos.

Busy day, Monday is always busy but this was twice as busy as usual.

But when I took a lunch break I found a nice big christmas tree in a chattery shop, for only a few pounds,
so the decorations wandering around my flat will be on a big tree soon, which is good, as they multiply like rabbits, and while there are still no hooks in the walls, the decorations are simply all over the furniture and doors and mirrors.
I wonder if the hooks will ever get done.

I will collect the tree in a few days.

All my work is done but I am tired, and the migraine lingers.

I am still losing weight, and although my health and fitness programme ends next week forever, I will continue the work.

This evening I went to church social, and it was the last one until January 12th, so that is another monday thing finished, making mondays less busy.
We had a lovely evening and some nice food with tea and coffee afterwards.

Tomorrow my adoptive mum finally manages to get here, and I miss one coffee morning and one Christmas party in order to entertain her, and she is well worth missing those things.
I have to get up early and make two bus journeys to collect her from the travel terminal, but we have a nice sunny winter's day to look forward to.




Monday morning

Good morning,

I am not in court this morning, obviously. I am just pottering about before the real busyness of the day begins.

I slept through the night but woke at 3am, dreaming I was in a que and needing the loo, thankfully there was no que for the ensuite, so I went to the loo and went back to sleep, waking this morning, still with a migraine, but it is background, especially as I have thrown drugs at it.

I ran out of milk, so I went to get some milk, some bus fare and some lozenges, and I posted 4 cards on the way.
Today is one of those days when I kill many birds with a few stones, I think the birds I kill will be the noisy seagulls who are doing an out of tune chorus out the back as I write this.

It's another cold grey day, which is fine by me.


I must motivate to get the flat ready for Mum's visit before I head out for my busy day.


Sunday, 14 December 2014

Sunday evening

Good evening,

Well I had a good roast lunch, then I have been busy writing, mainly short stories for my friend to appraise.

Then I have been writing the next batch of Christmas cards and preparing for tomorrow.

Monday is my busy day, and tomorrow is no exception, but I will have the ipad with me so I will be able to update and email while I am on the move.

The busy day tomorrow runs into the delayed visit by my adoptive mum on Tuesday, but thankfully the flat is clean and in order, so that will be ok, I have to collect her on Tuesday morning.

This evening I took a break from writing and enjoyed a walk along the cliffs in the dark, it was drizzling and the sea was wild.

I still have a neck ache and a migraine, which is a pain.

I am also sad that no one has sent me my alpine advent calender this year, please can I have my alpine advent calender, even though it is a bit late? :) It's from Jacqui Lawson.
I like playing with the alpine calender, it is so christmassy.


Sunday lunchtime

Good lunchtime,

Well last night I managed to get to sleep and sleep through the night.

I woke in the morning with a head and neck ache from sleeping without moving in obviously the wrong position.

I got up and had a shower and did some writing, I kept meaning to walk over to the cliffs but church time came round and I was still writing.

I biked down to church.

Church was a delight today, we had carols and christingles.
I enjoyed the carols but was not allowed to eat the sweeties of my christingle until after the service.
Then I ate mine and offered to eat everyone else's.

After church we had the usual coffee and chatter. I sat with my friends, and Postman Pat came round with cards for people, because the church do a system where you can drop off your cards for people and the cards are taken round by Pat after the service.
I have tried to make sure my cards to church people were nativity ones, so as not to offend anyone devout (wonder where I learned that from!) but funnily enough, a majority of the cards I got today were glittery church pictures! :)
I also got a spare christingle, a tin of biscuits, and an update on my television.
I was amazed! The people getting me a television have offered to get me a new television with freeview, and pay some towards my licence. I have only got my licence in the last few days.
Wow.
And please tell me that some channel, any channel are showing 'Are you Being Served?' over Christmas, or send me the DVD box set.

I am just doing dinner, chicken fillets with special potatos and carrot and parsnip.

I biked home along the cliffs, and looking out the window at them now, there are snowy stormclouds looming.

Saturday, 13 December 2014

Saturday evening

Good evening,

Well this morning I got paperwork and laundry done due to waking so early, and I went to the shop for bread and milk, but then I was tired and went back to sleep from 9am to12.30pm.

I got up again, wishing I could sleep properly.

I got on with chores, but it seems no matter what I do at the moment, I get absolutely nothing done, and the flat always looks trashed and dirty no matter how much I clean it, why can't it scub up as well as the old flat? It depresses me.

I have been out riding on buses for hours, first enjoying the lovely clear winter sunshine, then the sunset and the landscape lit up in a pink glow, then the dark and the Christmas lights.

I have just got home and am doing pork chops with potatos fried with salt and garlic.

I am recovering from the cold, and all will be well if this slight chest infection clears quickly.

Can I do my Christmas list? can I? Can I?


  • Writers and Artists Yearbook 2015
  • chocolate
  • printer that works
  • books
  • DVDs
  • wifi that works
  • more chocolate
  • goodies and nice things
  • food
  • a car 
  • a pony
  • a villa in the south of France
I always ask for the last three but I never get them.



Saturday 4.30am

Good morning,

I woke at 3.30am, full of nightmares and distress.
Thankfully the cold isn't too bad now, but I am worried about so much at the moment, less than 2 weeks to Christmas and I don't even have a pound for a locker at the gym this morning. The flat is still difficult to manage and I am in chaos and without money.

It is going to be a cold day today, but bright and sunny, so that is ok.

I am working out how to do gym with no locker money, and how to get some letters printed and sent as my printer was broken in the move. As was my camera's software CD and numerous things, what a nightmare everything is at the moment.


Friday, 12 December 2014

Friday night, floods

Well we survived the gales, and a flood only occured when something in the kitchen plumbing blew.
I was alone in the house, in all apartment blocks, I was the only person home, and then there was water going everywhere in the kitchen and utility room, the landord is miles away and no one was home, so I phoned the landlord, and he tried everyone and finally got the man in the hotel to come over.
The man in the hotel stopped the water, as I had no screwdriver and hadn't been able to turn the water off with a knife.

Then alone, I had a flooded utility room and kitchen to clear. As you know I have a cold, and was trying to avoid a chest infection because of my asthma, well I now have a chest infection, but I managed to clear water from ceilings, walls, cupboards, surfaces, drawers, everything, especially the floor, which was a few inches deep.
I was soaked and I used all my towels and cloths and newpapers and a mop and buckets and bowls.

I am tired and coughing, but the kitchen and utility room are now dry -ish.
I put the heating way up and left the doors and windows open, and everything finally dried, and I then changed out of my sopping wet clothes and had a hot shower, pity all my towels were sopping wet, I had to dry myself on a flannel, before putting on fleecy tracksuit trousers and a thermal top and jumper.

What a disaster! I am tired and feel rough now.

I know this house has teething problems, but when does it stop teething? and does it need such sharp teeth?


Friday afternoon

Good afternoon,

Apologies, yesterday's post was labelled Tuesday afternoon, by accident.

Well, last night I went riding on buses, enjoying the Christmas lights.

Then I came home, and went to bed early, very tired.

I woke late this morning, 9.10am.

I had a shower, did some writing and although I feel rough and tired, I went out after a while.
Biked along the cliffs, enjoying the stormy sea, briefly checked in at coffee morning, then went to drop a card off.
Then I had my good old bike along the seafront, enjoying the wild weather and the sea.
A few people were out with wetsuits and boards.

I sat in the beach cafe, enjoying the sea, and realised I hadn't eaten all day and was tired.

Set off home via the shop and the other Christmas tree festival, where I was made very welcome but didn't have my camera, so I will have to go back tomorrow.

Home at last, very tired.
I did chicken and homous for lunch. Read the local paper, and now all I want to do is sleep.


Thursday, 11 December 2014

Thursday afternoon

Good afternoon,

Well this morning I walked to the leisure centre as I needed to get some change for the lockers on the way.
It was a cold and windy morning with light drizzle.

I got to the leisure centre and went to the gym first, I overdid the treadmill and things and ended up hobbling.
I had taken a large cloth as I thought my nose would run and the cloth looked enough like a sweat towel, but my nose didn't run during gym, it ran afterwards. And I felt ill, and I decided I didn't want a swim in tepid water.

I walked round to the doctor's surgery to collect my prescription slips, to ensure that I have enough asthma meds over Christmas.
They had done all the scripts but had given me one wrong med, how annoying. So I have to go back for that on Monday.

Anyway, I hobbled towards home and stopped to drop the prescriptions off at my local chemist.

I got home, had more tea, and got on with cleaning the communal areas for the apartments.

By lunchtime I felt really ill, but I walked down to get my meds, then I went to the lunch club, dropped off the cards for the elderlies, and picked up a roast turkey dinner to bring home, it is only a short walk so the roast dinner was still hot and delicious when I got home.

Then I fell into bed and slept.

I woke and felt tired and shivery, as you do when you sleep in the day, so I turned the heater on, and did coffee, and started cleaning the flat, I did the bathroom first, and now the whole place looks a bit better.

I walked over to the cliffs, it is a cold windy afternoon with lots of dog walkers out, and ships sheltering in the bay, the sea being blown by the wind, and dark clouds hurrying over.

I feel a little bit better, so I may go out riding on buses.

We are just working out if my Mum comes over tomorrow what with the weather and me having a cold. It may wait until next week.


Thursday morning 6.22am

Good morning,

Well I woke at 4.40am, which isn't too bad.
I only slept lightly, dreaming a lot, probably not sleeping too well due to having a cold.
The cold is bad but not the worst I ever had.

I have been writing as I have DWP trouble again.

I just went out the back to check the weather, it is cold with a bitter wind, no rain yet, I may get the bus up to the leisure centre for my gym and swim as biking in the cold wind with a cold may trigger an asthma attack.

There was a cat sitting outside the back door, I think it got the wrong house.
No one else is up yet.

And the ruddy cards just fell down again! :(

Wednesday, 10 December 2014

Wednesday evening

Good evening,

Please excuse the lack of blog, I have been rather busy.

I woke this morning feeling tired and stressed, and I had a shower, several cups of tea, and got on with the cards for the elderly folk. I found I was 10 cards short, so I sent an email and I was to hand in the done cards and get some more today, which I did.

A busy morning went ahead, but I felt ill and tired.
I realised when my friends collected me for the Christmas Dinner, that I was going down with a cold, which rarely happens, but at least I can't get flu, cos mean old doctor jabbed me.

The meal was a delight, there were 35 of us, and the food was excellent and the staff were lovely, it was at an old manor house which is now a restaurant, rather posh, but we were allowed in.

So, we had a lovely time, but when I was full of roast turkey dinner, I felt even more ill and tired.
So when my friends dropped me home, I cancelled the rest of the day's activities, even this evening's vital activity, but they understood as other people had called in sick the same.

So I wandered into my bed and slept for two hours.

I woke up to the news that the downstairs boilers have failed, so we have no heating down here, it is a cold december night, but my room is warm so I am not bothered, the manager spoke to the landlord and he got her to give me a heater just in case I got cold.
The boilers will be fixed tomorrow when the landlord gets here. It's ok though, because I am warm and I don't need anything.

I walked up to the shop, got reduced ham, cucumber and homous for sandwiches, and then I went in the other shop and got some Beechums all in one and some lozenges, I thought the lady at the counter would be worried about serving a customer with a cold, but she had a cold too.
I so rarely get colds, but I must encourage the cold symptoms to go so that it doesn't affect my asthma.

It is a cold clear night with strong cold winds, and bad weather is due in, which may yet again disrupt the visit my adoptive mum has planned for Friday.


Tuesday, 9 December 2014

Tuesday evening

Good evening peeps,

Well I have felt tired and low this afternoon, and as well as the sore throat, I developed a mild but persistent nosebleed, very odd.
I don't feel great.

This evening I headed for gym and swim. It was windy and rainy, such a change from the cold clear recent weather.

I got to the leisure centre and realised I had very little energy, I swam, and felt a bit better, did gym, not a huge training session, very gentle, and I cut short the treadmill session as my leg ached.

it isn't very far between the leisure centre and home, but in this weather I decided to get the bus home, only trouble was, someone annoyingly came into the bus shelter and lit a cigarette, so I decided to walk home and stop at the shopsfor something to eat, I am not hungry with such a raging throat, so it was hard to find anything, in the end I got a mini trifle and a soft pie.

As I walked home, I seemed to meet everyone I knew, only trouble was, it is hard to tell who people are in the dark with their hoods up.

I am feeling tired, rotten, and I want to sleep, only trouble is, I have about 30 Christmas cards left to do for the elderly folk, because everyone deserves some Christmas cheer, and my personal Christmas cards are only part done as well, and tomorrow I am busy from early until my friends collect me for Christmas meal, and then I will come back in the afternoon and back out again for the evening. Harhar, busybusy. I must get these cards done.


Tuesday afternoon

Good afternoon,

A very tired blogger is trying to rest but is too wired and buzzing to to rest much, even with a temperature and a sore throat.

This morning, I scooted out of the house and down to church and forgot my breakfast, again! :)

The sun was shining over the sea and it was a cold winter day but I had to hurry and get to church to help.

I was allocated a stall at the fayre, it happened to be the craft stall, and I got covered in glitter and looked very festive as I tried to undo the ornemental boxes that the kids had made, because they had generously applied glitter glue, and some of the boxes were stuck shut! :)

It was a fun but busy morning and I enjoyed it, running the craft stall and chatting to my friends, and it was quite a generous morning, because, as with the other Christmas event, I ended up being given loads of stuff, cards, presents, mince pies, sweets, decorations, I came home tired, hungry, and laden with goodies.

I am very tired and my throat and head are sore, but leg a bit better. I certainly don't have flu, as the mean old doctor vaccinated me, and this doesn't seem to be a cold, yet. Dunno what it is.
I can't find the bag of lozenges anywhere, even though they were by the bed this morning, but at least I found a decent version of 'O' Holy Night' on Youtube.

I am on stand-down for the moment, it gets busy again tomorrow as well as the weather turning nasty.
It is nice to try and relax and do not a lot, but rather hard to do that as well, because December is buzzing with things happening.


Tuesday Morning

Good morning,

Well, I was tired and I slept.

I woke this morning with a sore throat, one leg aching and the other with cramp, nightmares and flashbacks troubling me, so I felt very low when I woke in the dark early morning, so I stayed in bed and dozed, I am tired anyway, and the dozing only produced bad dreams as well. Who hates Tuesdays?

I am drinking my tea, I need a shower and I have to head for church in less than an hour to help out.

There is a clear sky and a glorious sunrise on another cold day.


Monday, 8 December 2014

Monday evening

Good evening,

A very tired blogger writes this.

This morning I biked to gym assessment.
I was told by my trainer that my leg injury is a shin splint rather than a tendon strain.
I have never had a shin splint before, it is painful, I used to train with someone who was prone to shin splints and they were in pain a lot. I have to avoid impact on that leg for the moment, so my gym was only slightly disrupted, I had a good workout and then a swim, then I biked home along the cliffs on a glorious clear, cold and sunny morning.

I had a teabreak, set off again for meetings and errands, home for lunch, off again to caretake my friend's house, then health and fitness, where I am only losing weight all the time and have nearly finished the set programme but will continue, albeit at another location and in a different way, it has been a success.

Anyway, home from there, quick break, bit of writing, and back out to church social.

Church social was good, and then I got some groceries and walked home under a clear starry sky, a cold night with a bright moon, the cliffs so quiet and deserted and the calm sea rippling in the cold wind and breaking gently on the shore far below the cliffs.
Home and very tired, catching up with emails and writing.

Tomorrow I help with another church Christmas event, then I have a haircut and some shopping.

Then the serious Christmas Dinner season starts after tomorrow, thankfully I am allowe any amount of turkey, and I have just had turkey fillets for my supper, as I sometimes do, cooked from raw, nothing added, very good for you.

Monday morning

Good morning,

Well, I was having distressing dreams about Jersey and Winchester, and I woke into flashbacks and depression, with my leg aching.

I am supposed to be at gym assessment in an hour and I don't feel like it at all, I have a long and busy day ahead, and although I have prepped for it, I feel rubbish, and my leg aches.

Well at least the stoopid Christmas cards have remained on the wall through the night. I am not putting them back up if they fall down.

It's a cool morning with light cloud, and a faint orange dawn over the sea.


Sunday, 7 December 2014

Sunday evening

Good evening,

The blogs are statting high, especially Jersey stats, whatsup Jersey?

Well, I have been boredly cleaning, tidying, cooking, doing chores and tasks, writing cards, doing task lists, all the boring stuff, but also watching 'The Naked Gun' on repeat and enjoying Christmas Carols.
I didn't go to the carol service this afternoon, it was probably crowded and I will have Carol overload by Christmas.




Sunday afternoon

Good afternoon,

Well I had a lovely day in London, lovely skating and photography and fellowship.

I got home at about 8.30pm yesterday evening, but I was tired.

I walked home through the cold and frost, knowing the temperature would rise as the rain and wind came in.

I had a shower, did some writing and went to sleep.

I woke this morning and biked into town in the early morning to drop cards and sponsor money and things off.

Then I came home along the front, the sea was lively.

I had a shower, put some cards together and went to church.

I am honest, I did not enjoy the visiting speaker's service, but afterwards I talked to my friends and drank tea.
I have really crocked my leg by skating. Ouch.


Anyway, after church I came home, I didn't fancy a full roast, so I did some mini fillets and ate them on their own, didn't even add bread.

Then I have been Christmas and grocery shopping, and just got home, very tired, I may rest and watch movies.

Saturday, 6 December 2014

saturday , London

Good morning,

Well I had an awesome skate at the outdoor rink at Somerset House, then a photoshoot of the Christmas arcade.
Now I am sitting on the terrace, about to set off on the rest of the adventure.
It is a glorious day.

saturday morning, London bound

Good morning,

Well I slept well but woke with a cramp in my leg and said nortywords.

I got up in the dark early morning and made tea.

My money was in, so I was London bound.

Waiting on the small platform for the train, the platform was covered in thick frost and the moon hung in a clear and starry sky. The moon set as we travelled, it was all funny and yellow then.


I am now on the third leg of the journey, due into London at about 8.50. And it  is getting light , a brilliant clear dawn over frosty fields.

One of the other people from my house is on the train with me by coincidence, having taken the same route at the same time, but she isn't going to London.

London must be nortyfied pre-christmas, and there is hot chocolate and ice skating and fellowship to be had.



Friday, 5 December 2014

Friday evening

Good evening,

At lunchtime I cooked a huge dish of fish and rice, enough for lunch and supper.

Then I went to the library and also booked a haircut.

Then I went in one of the chattery shops, they do good cards there, and they had Christmas cards at a decent price, so I got some, some of my friends only like like Christmas cards that refer to the Nativity and the meaning of Christmas, so I was pleased that the Chattery shop had some at a good price.

I managed to have my much-missed bike ride along the front today, it was great, a calm sea and the hills blue in the cold air.

I came home and have been writing and also finishing the paperchain, which is now up.

The paperchain looks gloriously lopsided, but it will do.

I went out to get the local paper, and it is cold out, with Christmas lights shining everywhere and the gritting lorry is out.
The first Christmas trees and lights started to appear mid-November, haha, me and Mum saw the first one when she was over here then. These days people put fairy lights up as soon as the long nights begin, a winter thing rather than Christmas.

And what about Black Friday? We are not American, we do not celebrate Thanksgiving (yet) so why are we made to hear about black friday all the time? Just a way of selling more. Last year they had just come up with making the sheeple celebrate black friday and were feeding them 'Black Friday' as a click word on repeat, the way to do it is to get old church ladies to say it and go 'what does that mean?' over and over.
Oh, and then they add 'cyber monday' to make people buy more stuff. Does it make people happier or better off? No, poor sheeple, if they were told that standing on their heads once a day would make them healthy wealthy and wise, they would do it, especially if they were told that people in America do it.

Anyway, I have also been having conversations with my adoptive mum. Earlier this week I was overjoyed to get a text saying we were all having a weekend and going to London, but then dismayed when health problems their end cancelled it, this happens a lot, as you may have realised if you have been reading the blog, but it still throws me when it happens.
So anyway, it looks like I can go to London on my own tomorrow if my money comes through, so I can see my beloved winter London of hot chocolate and ice skating, and see our friends, and then Mum is coming over to see me during the week, although we have ended up in a bit of a muddle over when as we collectively have various Christmas events to attend and other things to do.

My December quick diary looks so busy.

I think I need an early night, because even if I don't go to London tomorrow, I still have a lot to do, lots of local Christmas events going on etc.


Friday lunchtime

Good lunchtime,

Well last night I got my washing done, and I watched Miracle on 4th Street and started on paper chains. I don't remember paperchains being such hard work before! I haven't done them since I was a kiddie.

Anyway, I knocked myself out with 5HTP and slept a long night with very busy and complicated dreams.

When I woke this morning I got up and put the linens in the wash, did some paperwork, and then biked to the leisure centre for swim and gym.
I have only just got back, believe it or not.

The linens are drying.

It is a cold but beautuful Winter's day, the hills are blue in the mist and cold, the sea is calm and it is a cold but nice day.


Thursday, 4 December 2014

Thursday evening

Good evening,

Well it was a cold grey drizzly afternoon when I sluggishly headed for swim and gym.

I had a good gym and swim and it did liven me up. Free training is much better than the set routine I had to start with.

I came home through the cold drizzle and dark, stopped on the way to get coloured pencils and sellotape, why? :) yeah! Gonna do paperchains! :):):) keeping the norty out of mischeef!

When I got home, I found my DVD of Miracle on 34th Street and put it on to play, and I put the fairy lights on.
How Christmassy! :)

I am vaguely working, I am still a bit confused about my new place and what goes where, so a little trail of odds and ends keeps wandering round the flat, looking for a home.

I have put some washing on, but as usual, someone nicked the tumble dryer use as soon as I did, dunno why they do that.

I need to put some eggs on for tea, and continue sorting things out. As well as watching the movie.

Thursday lunchtime

Good lunchtime,

Well I slept soundly and woke groggy, depressed and in flashbacks.

I got up, wandered through the shower and several cups of tea, and was pleased to find some money had come in, my finances are still in transition with the new house, but there was enough to go into town and collect my computer and then do a small amount of shopping.
The problem is, I have three long shopping list, house stuff, groceries and Christmas stuff, so I started with house stuff.

I came home, set the computer up, and then went back out to the next town along to do some more shopping, groceries, christmas stuff and house stuff.
As well as the move and the money being in transition, everything ran low while I was on the walk, so everything was low anyway due to the move and  then not getting stocked up, so now I have been buying, but there is still a lot to get and now the money is low until the next lot, which should be within the next few days.

While I was in the next town, I dropped in at the Christmas tree festival, which was really good, the best tree of course, was my friends' tree, and I'm not just saying that, they won the cup last year.

It is a cold and chilly wet day. This morning I stood on the cliff tops, the sky over the sea was dark with cloud and the sea was rough, white caps breaking.

I think it is trying to snow, although the long range forecast is for cold weather but nothing extreme up to Christmas, no snow, no dreadful floods like last year.

I have gym and swim shortly and I may or may not take up the invitation to dance this evening, I am low energy this week, don't really want to do anything.


Wednesday, 3 December 2014

Wednesday night

Good evening,

Well we finished at 9.45pm, amd I am lucky to have got a lift home as it is two bus rides away.
Tired now, sleep.

Wednesday Afternoon

Good afternoon,

Yesterday afternoon I had to go and collect my bike as I had left it in town while we did the furniture removals.
The bike was chewing through it's tether and trying to bite the other bikes, dunno where it gets it's nortyness from.

Anyway, it was a cold evening and I drifted into sleep early and slept deeply, woke from nightmares into flashbacks which have continued through the day.

I think being in a new place sets my brain off with the fear of being trapped by the diocese and their police, so hopefully the bad dreams and morning depression will settle eventually.

Anyway, I woke at 6am, and staggered into the shower and a cup of tea.

Then I did odds and ends and stood on the cliff top as the sun rose through the clouds over the sea and into a clear sky.

Eventually I headed for church, where I spent the morning helping with a Christmas Fayre, that was fun, and I was sent home with three Christmas parcels and a new teddy (the toy kind, not the norty kind)
This is a very norty song about teddies https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wn6HI5JQBhQ

My day is far from over, no rest for the norty, I wont get home until late.


Tuesday, 2 December 2014

Tuesday evening

Good evening,

Well we moved the furniture, me, my friend and the lesser spotted landlady.

Then the lesser spotted landlady hugged me and told me to call round any time.

Then I worked out where the furmiture lived in the new flat.

I also worked out the bin emptying and refuse collection routine, so now I feel like I live here.
I am happy to have my table and chairs here.

I am very tired, can hardly bother with routines, will go to bed soon.

Tomorrow on duty at a church Christmas event, and then a new venture.

Tuesday afternoon

Good afternoon,

I biked to coffee morning, it is a cold cloudy, breezy winter's day, with flurries of cold wet falling from the sky.

Coffee was good, and I got sponsor money and recounted the walk again to various askers.

Then I headed for a meeting, which turned out to be positive.
Then I headed home along the cliffs. the sea is cold and rather rough today, after a few days of calm.

I did mini chicken fillets for lunch, small, nutritious, easy to cook, good for you.

I am now waiting to go and collect furniture from the old house in about half an hour.

I have to start organizing what is happening where, as the run up to Christmas is so busy.


Tuesday morning

Good morning,

Well yesterday was busy.
I was doing write ups of the walk, but I am still on the ipad so it was slow work.

The finances for the new place are still in transition so I couldn't renew my bus pass.
So I dragged the blue bike, kicking and snorting, onto the train, I have a train card and I biked from the station to caretakemy friend s house.
Then I biked to health and fitness.
Normally I dont bike these journeys, as I don't like biking on the road in the dark.
I got an award at health and fitness.
The sponsored walk is impressive exercise and also caused impressive weight loss despite me eating anything I fancied last week, my weightis down and fitness is up.

I biked back into town, I hadn't been to church social for weeks and was determined to get there but was early,  so I walked the front, helped a random old lady back to her hotel, and went to social.
Social was fun, and everyone wanted to talk about the walk.

I biked home to the news that the boilers had failrd, teething troubles for yhe new apartments, poor landlord out late trying to fix the boilers.
My apartment wasn't affected so they said they would camp in my room. Joking.

I slept a full night and woke to the seagull chorus, the seagulls are busy today. It is a cold windy winters day, and I am about to bike along the cliff to coffee.

I am in pain, I haven't got the pillows or temperature right in my new room yet.

Monday, 1 December 2014

monday morning 2

Good morning,

I continued writing this morning and then I biked along the cliff to gym and swim, which went well.
I can free train now instead of following a set routine.
I biked back along the cliffs, lovely cold winters day.

Busy day today, made worse by lack of sleep.

mondAy 4.30am

Good morning,

I woke from nightmares, either unwell or just too tense, at 3am.
I tried to sleep, then I did painkillers and a hot water bottle,
Still no sleep, which is bad as I have a long busy monday.

So I have beeen sitting here writing.

It is cold outside.


Sunday, 30 November 2014

sunday night

Good evening,

I biked to church this morning.
They announced the walk completion and I got a round of applause.

We had a lively service and then people were talking to me about the walk and I got sponsor money.
The first advent candle was lit today.

After that I came home, cooked roast dinner but suddemly felt ill and didn't want to eat.

So i biked into town to drop letters and sponsor money off.
I met a friend who is in real crisis, which reminded me to count my blessings.
I struggled home, still feeling rough, and made a good start on the big sort out of the flat, paperwork and task lists for the week.

The flat is neat, there are massive lists on the table, and the first signs of Christmas are here, a tiny tree, a tinsel penguin and some cards.

I am unusually tired and muzzy headed, so I will walk to the cliffs,  then when I return I will shower and sleep.


sunday morning

Good morning,

Yesterday my poor landlord had to unblock the loo, the outlet pipes are very small.

I did chicken and homous for lunch and then went to the christmas lights carnival.

Despite the ipad playing up, I got some photos and videos.

I stopped in town to drop some things off, then I came home and had homous and carrots for supper before having a troubled nights sleep.

I woke early but stayed in bed a while.


I got up, showered and dressed, and went for a bike ride round the cliff top gardens.
Then I did bacon and eggs for breakfast, now I am preparing for church.

Saturday, 29 November 2014

Saturday afternoon

Good afternoon,

I woke early as usual and decided a bus ride would keep my system happy.

I had a bus ride, came back, stood on the cliffs in the early sunshine, then I did bacon sandwiches and coffee for breakfast.

No rest for the nortyperson, I have been helping my landlord clean the apartments today.
It made me feel more fatigued than the walk did, as I am back on my diet, which is low carbs.

I have biked down to the shops as I havent had much chance to shop so everything ran low.

I did chicken and humous for lunch.